Confession: Wow, am I a fat a**!

"Gosh, I am fat!" "OMG, why does my face look so fat in pictures?" "Wow, I am a fat ass!" "Ugh... I think it's the mirror" "Oh that picture makes me look fat!"  These are all things that I saw to myself on a daily basis. I call myself fat over and over again all day. It sucks, but you want to know what hurts so much more? It hurts to hear other people agree with me. And it hurts to know that it isn't the picture that makes me look fat, it's the fat that makes me look fat! Does anyone get really upset being called fat, and then continue eating something unhealthy... guilty!

For the majority of my life, I was not fat. I said I was fat when my pants didn't fit right or there was a little tiny roll over my bikini. I called myself fat all the time.  And I didn't feel it really... I didn't mean it really... I was one of those girls who said it to be reassured I wasn't.

Well, now I get reassured that I am. UGH! It sucks! I know that the majority of people in my life don't think my weight gain came on suddenly, but I do.  It seems that one day I started seeing pictures of a girl that I didn't recognize. I was in denial. I also made excuses (oh I am having health problems) Well, now my health is clear from the problems I was having but now I have replaced those problems with new ones. I gained weight over the last year. I don't recognize myself in the mirror or in pictures.

Well, there are two choices: Live with it or Fix it!
On Monday, I joined the YMCA and Weight Watchers.  I used to think that I was an athlete and I didn't need Weight Watchers because that was for people who don't know how to eat right. I have finally realized that I don't know how to eat right. I have a problem with food. I need to fix it. I need to feel good about myself.  I hope that these two choices will help me get to my goal. I want to lose 30 lbs in the next few months. Numbers are just numbers, so I just want to lose... if I don't get to 30, I will survive.  But the numbers will go down!!!

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